I know you know that i've always been depressed,
that i never get rest, that i'm always stressed,
that my brain is exploding,
that my mind keeps on going,
that the words that come out of my mouth,
they bring me much doubt, they freak people out,
there are things in my life that are really wrong,
the people that talk shit about me, my dad and my mom,
i just cant take this shit anymore, its a pain in the neck,
the only resolution i have in this world is death,
there are times when im happy, i feel so alive,
but there are nights where i sit and cry wishing i'd die,
there are times when i say all of the things im feeling,
there are times when i say all the things im concealing,
but lately i've been getting all this stress,
thats been eating me recently off of this chest,
my mind is escaping out of my brain,
and my heart is pouring all of this pain,
the hole in my heart just keeps on gaping,
because of all the shit that i've been taking,
but for all of those people who say shit about me,
im glad cause they feed me the fuel that i need for the fire inside me to
keep on burning,
cause the fire has kept me alive, its kept me returning,
cause the fire has kept me from saying goodbye,
its kept me from saying that i wanna die,
cause im not in that place, im not in that position,
to end my life from the knife laying in my kitchen,
Im not living a fantasy, im living the reality,
Gravity is keeping me down, blood is rushing in me,
the life i was living i just cant explain it,
the depression taking over me was bad wasnt it?
the life that im living now is under no hesitation,
im living my life under no complications,
the life i was living was gone in a flash,
i just hope to god that it doesnt come back.

 
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