Leave me to my death-
calling all my mind.
Convert this lonelyness-
in this state of mind.

Scars from cuts-
I carved in my skin.
Marks of hatred,
all my life its been.

Destroy your life-
destroy my own.
You trusted me in my room,
and now I'm all alone.

There is no pain,
I've waited for this time.
This is just what you wanted,
the contract in which you sign.

Drowning won't work,
Scissors will be too slow.
A knife will kill all the answers-
that no one will ever know.

I enjoy this feeling-
that everyone will hate.
I've tried it once or twice,
but todays the final date.

For once this all makes sense.
There's no missing link.
There will be no hesitation-
it doesn't take time to think.

Blood on the floor-
"Is this what you wanted?"
A safe haven to build upon?
or something dead and haunted?

Smiles is to laughter,
as suicide is to tears.
taking this happiness-
only brought your worst fears.

Call me selfish-
but you wanted this too.
It was a thing for me-
the best for you.

I'll say no goodbyes-
just the stains on the floor.
For you to remember-
When I'm around no more.
 
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