The Trigger of my Sanity

numbness over takes me
lost in the taste of my blood
i have gone numb
no emotions escape but
only build up to kill me later
the life that fills me burns me
leaving its mark of unhappiness on my soul
the path of my sanity twists and curves
when will it stop?
when I die?
as it curves i see the past again
so familar you look but you have changed
unrecognizable to my new state
lashing out i try to fight you
to save myself
but you over take me
suducing my sickness to my futher distruction
when will this end?
shall the trigger of my sanity decide?
i can now smell the color of my sickness
i can now taste the sound of your voice
the voice that stimulates everything i am
the voice that breaks the glass of my heart
the heart punctured by your ways
the path straightens now
but seems to become thinner
balancing my life, i go on
shall i let the wind of sacrafice
take me from my slumber?
or shall i resist it?
as i pull forward
the wounds break
blood pours out of my consiousness
spilling onto my new path
making it slippery
i see you bathing in my blood
i see you drink it
devour it
taking me with it
i scream but the sound doesnt come out
rather i taste my scream
sour as it is, i swallow
trying to pour myself
back into me, trying to fight you
trying to keep what little i have left
tears of blood drip from my face
into my pours to be recycled
and burned once again
to be devoured by you
wont you go away?
that is not possible
you have me on your chain
from which the links cannot be broken
each link represents my faults
as i have feared, the chain grows
more links are added
gripping tighter and tighter to my bleeding heart
for your sake i kill myself again
but you are still there
never pending to differ from me
never trying to break away
but rather you feed on this
I am fucking burning in your eyes for this!
I am fucking burning for you!
but you are not satisfied
finally the knot is tightened
finally the trigger is pulled
the burning has ceased
the end has come
the relief i have desired
came from the trigger of my sanity
the path has finally ended
as if this was to become my reality
as i leave this place
your smile is with me
Goodbye my love...
 
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