Why does it seem that all my friends are happy...
And then I fall into the depths of depression again...
Why is it that I pray for a year straight for something to happen,
And all I get is my friends calling me up,
Telling me how they get to cuddle with their new boyfriends....

Well here's something for you...
I'm sick of being nice to everyone that pisses me off
I'm sick of not telling the fucking truth
And I'm sick of being me...
I'm just fucking sick of being in love with you

I try and try again to stop liking you...
Yes, I've tried... but it doesn't work...
You don't see yourself as I do...
I've looked for your flaws...
But I see them as the things that make you unique

I've tried once and I've tried twice...
But you have to understand that I just can't.
There is just some damn thing about you...
Just some damn thing....

But here I go again...
So sick of life, so sick of my friends...
So sick of the fake world I've created around myself so I would stop
hurting...
It didn't work...

Then I found you... And I fell in love
Everything about you made me comfortable for who I am...
Just everything you are... just everything...

There are days no lie... that I wish you would be dead...
So this pain could stop... but every time I think
There would only be more... and it's hard enough when I can't get over
you...
It's hard enough...

A lot of people believe that I'm a blonde and I like every guy...
I don't... I wish I did... because then it wouldn't make this so hard.
The feelings I get around you...
But it doesn't matter... You don't care about me... Yet I would give my
world up for you.
You wouldn't care if I would confess my love for you and shoot myself in
front of you...
You'd shrug your shoulders and walk away
You'd just walk away...

You don't know how badly I envy people
You talk to them... Wow the most you ever say to me is "I don't know"
God... every time I see those three damn words it is like you are taking a
knife and stabbing me.
You don't realize it at all...
You don't realize it...

I cry myself to sleep every night...
Just because I wish your life was better for you...
I always hear how it is so bad...
How it seems your mother hates you, you had one bitch fuck up your life...
God damn them....
Why did they get you, when all I want to do is make you happy?
Oh, here's the best one... You took a girl to Snow Ball
WHO DITCHED YOU, AND HOOKED UP WITH A GUY THAT NIGHT.
Well she turned out to be someone, didn't she?
Yet I would give up every god damn little thing for you in an instant...
Doesn't matter though....

You'll never read this... I know you won't...
But if you do... then guess what...
I've tried to stop liking you...
It doesn't work that way... because...
As much as you don't want to hear this... sorry... but
I'm in love with you... and nothing can change that...
No guy... nothing...
Just please don't forget that....
Don't forget it....
 
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