I'm sick of loving you
because it causes me so much pain,
it brings me up and down and happy and sad
over and over again.
I'm sick of thinking about what we had
Because its all my fault its over,
im sick of dreaming of you
Because it leaves me wishin on a clover.
I'm sick of thinking of the good times
because they supercede the bad,
it brings back all our memories
and leaves me so fucking sad.
I'm sick of wanting whats not there
becuase its just a dead end,
every time I think of you
my heart breaks and it wont mend.
I'm sick of looking into your eyes
cuz i fall harder every time,
I'm sick of seeing you
Because I cant get you off my mind.
I'm sick of walking past you
and wishing you were mine,
I'm sick of being just friends
Because to me thats less then fine.
I'm sick of you making me laugh
because it makes me love you so much more,
I hate seeing you around
because when I don't, I hit the floor.
I'm sick of living in the past
and wishing it was today,
I'm sick of you being around me
I wish you'd go away.
I'm sick of the things you do
those little smiles, the stupid jokes the way you make me feel,
I'm sick of your face and your personality
because your right in front of me and all too real.
I'm sick of hurting because I lost you
and still it wont go away,
I want you to leave me alone
but yet I want you to stay.
I want you to hate me
but I need to be your friend,
I want you to forget me
but then I know it'd be the end.
I want you to hurt me
like you did so many times before,
I want you to like me
to love me even more.
I'm sick of knowing I lost you
because it hurts so deep inside,
I'm sick of not sharing my emotions
but they're something I've gotta try to hide.

 
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