i found the tub of pills hidden away
not a soul had searched for them they just landed in my way
they reached me and grabbed the attention within me
i took one and set my soul free
i took another, followed by another
until the thought came to why should you even bother
theres two roads this overdose will lead to thats living life to the end and
the other death
the first option sucks the second option is the best
I'm either tryingg to fuck up or dig my own grave
I'm putting on a smile trying to be brave
but the girl within me screams from dawn till dusk
along with my family the bond has broken for Trust
I'm broken like a promise shattered like a dream
whose life is continuously on a big screen
i begged every friend if they die be for me
and if god says you can bring a friend choose me
maybe ill see a smile that ain't forced
maybe people will show me real remorse
as they realize to the world i portrayed myself as a lie
and on the inside I'm in a daze and i just continue to cry
i was having the most amazing day till i woke up
thats when the word vomit would come up
to release the frustration of the pain you caused
I've barricaded myself within these walls
which you helped me to build i punch them so much it dint even hurt no more
I've lost my mind and all emotion
i can just be in daze all day
lose concentration on this shit life more and more everyday
 
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