I used to think that nothing in the world is worth it
And I think I still do
I thought, "what's the point of living,
If no one seems to care for you?"

So I started cutting myself with a little knife
Just because I wanted to take away my life
I wanted to take away the pain I felt inside
Cause it's something I can no longer hide

I wanted to try and do everything
Like all kinds of drugs and pills
Even cutting myself and not eating
I just wanted to do anything that kills

There are nights where I lay awake in bed, crying
Thinking, "why do I feel alone? So empty and low?"
It makes me want to run far,far away
But there's no where I could go

The beating heart in my chest used to always ache
And I didn't even know what was at stake
I never knew how much my friends and family cared about me
Till they said that by my side is where they'll always be

Still I think, "what happened to the love and compassion in me?"
"What happened to the silly, fun-loving girl I used to be?"
I hated my life and how it used to make me cry
But now I know there's much more to it that meets the eye

I know suicide is simply not an option
To end my problems, and I can't lie
And though my heart is full of pain so desolate
Deep down, I think, "Do I really want to die?"
 
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