"ME"

All my life I tried to make others happy
I tried and tried.
If I did not succeed I hated myself
I hated life.

Making everyone else happy was my hobby
Was my habbit.
But what I failed to realize was
I neglected myself.

It was probably the worst thing I ever did
Failing to realize what I had done.
I forgot who I was, how I felt
I forgot how to live.

The depression started to sink in
As for my life I didn't care.
My goal was to please others
And my vision became impaired.

My life became full of shattered hopes,
And my shattered dreams.
I lived for everyone else
But I didn't live for me.

On the verge of being suicidal
Every night I cried.
I still failed to realize
LIke a blanket over my eyes.

In school I acted normal
Like everything was right.
Not even my family
Knew I cried at night.

I felt my hopes rise
As I thought I met the one.
But in the end it hurt me
And once again I was wrong.

There was something I didn't realize
Something I didn't see.
Somewhere deep inside this lonely body
Somewhere there was me.

It took a long time for me to find it
As I still strived for perfection.
But I'm not perfect
That was the exception.

It was time for exploration
A time to find myself.
A time to learn what I'm about
And help the me come out.

It was very hard for me to do
I was stuck on what I was used to.
But I put forth what I knew was right
And my true side finally broke through.

Even now I still find myself
Worrying what others think of me.
I know it's not right
But this is all new.

I'm not used to being forward
To being independant.
I've always been insecure
Always been shy.

Luckily I've got some friends
That are the dominant way.
I learn a new tactic to help me with this
Each and every day.

And now I've gotten better
At my insecurities.
I found the person I want to be
I found the real and true me.


 
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